Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Finding joy in just being

If there is one thing I am good at it is being BUSY!  I can put Superwoman to shame with all that I can accomplish in one day's time and I take pride in being able to accomplish everything at home AND still work part-time.

Unfortunately, as time goes on I realize that there is so much more to be said about just being still and being quiet.  This is something I am not good at but nursing V is forcing me to just sit down and enjoy the moment.  I have decided that I want more of that- time to reflect, prayer, meditate and just simply BE.  Time to listen to his coos, my other childrens' stories, how my husband's day was at work and listen to God's heart and what He wants me to know.  It is very hard to be fully present with my family and with my Lord when I am always so busy.  Pride swallowed, I repent and lesson learned but it will be a process.

Now, the baby is fussing and it is time to nurse.  I will grab my cup of tea and practice just being present with my baby, my 4 year old and my Lord.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Finding joy in special moments

This weekend is a weekend we have been looking forward to for a couple of months.  We have been working hard to have a retreat for our YoungLIVES mamas and their babies and it is finally coming to pass this Saturday and Sunday.  I am so excited to spend time with the mamas and their babies, as well as just have some one on one time with baby V (since the other kids will be at home with daddy).   Pray that all goes according to the Lord's will and that a good time is had by all.

I have not done any knitting- none.  I have been tired after cooking and cleaning and taking care of the children.  I am hoping to get my knitting groove back soon because I have a special gift I need to make for a special friend that I have not even cast on yet.

Have I mentioned that my sister got engaged?  I was so excited when I found out that I literally cried in the Fred Meyer grocery store!  I wish for her exactly what I have been blessed with- a great husband, children, health and happiness.  I am soo excited but nervous at the same time.  I am supposed to be the Matron of Honor and I have so much post partum weight to lose!!!  I am a little bit nervous about all of the responsibilites that go along with this role but I am honored and excited to be such an important part of this rite of passage.  I hope her husband-to-be realizes what an amazing treasure he has in my sister.  She is everything that any man in his right mind would want- smart, gorgeous, loving, giving, honest, loyal, funny, responsible, and has the best sister in the entire world!!!  :)

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Finding joy with postpartum chaos

Life has been....busy.  I am tired but it is definitely not as bad as it could be.  V has a pretty great schedule.  At night he goes down around 10pm and wakes at 2am for a feed and then again at 5 or 6am.  Definitely nothing to complain about.

A's transition has been getting better and the attitude is much improved with little slip ups here and there.  He is an excellent big brother to the new baby- if we can just keep on with being a good brother with everyone.

J is still absolutely in love with his brother and beams with joy while playing with him or simply laying by him.  Such sweet moments.

T has been amazingly helpful and has even been looking for a job.  He has applied many places but I think follow-up is an issue and believe that he would actually GET a job if he went and spoke to the management to show inititive.

So, now you have an update on the kids- all are doing well and the "hump" of the adjustments to the new little life with us is finally over, I think.

Despite having a new baby and working on family dynamics we have been getting back into the full swing of school and life with a routine. This has been my saving grace.  It did occur to me that alone I was not getting into the Word enough so on top of all that is going on, I also signed up for a Bible Study on James (Mercy Triumphs by Beth Moore).  We have added this into our Thursday schedule.

This coming weekend we are going on our YoungLIVES retreat.  I am so excited to be able to fellowship with such amazing women, mamas and babies.  I am trusting that God has some great plans.  I am bringing baby V- this should be interesting!  God is in control, God is in control...

It seems that I only have about 8 weeks left of my maternity leave and my heart is feeling very unsettled.  I long to be at home with my family cooking and cleaning but I know that for right now my job is also to work.  This is a hard realization for me and I am praying that God would grant me
peace, since this is not my will but His at this time.  I am thankful to only work part-time and realize that I could be working more, so I do not complain (too much).  I just love this staying at home gig so much and honestly, I am really good at it!  Even my husband said that he loves when I am home full time- things get done go by the wayside when I am rushing school, cleaning, cooking and work.  That is it for now, friends.  I wish I was not updating on my iPad because then I could add some photos of our life happenings.  Until next time.....